I am borrowing a post I made to a bulletin board recently to help convey some thoughts...
The goalball circus has been in full swing for the past six weeks, and it's been... interesting.
Just before the season started, I got three colds one right after the other (or a mutated version that kept coming back), so when I started practices Ihad NO endurance whatsoever. GRRRR! It's been a tough season so far, but it's also been great. We had the Ontario team come practice with us a few weeks ago,and that was awesome! I've also learned a few things about how to improve my offensive and defensive play.
I've come to a few realizations and have many questions to answer within the next few months:
1) My goal is to play in the 2012 Parolympics in London. In order to do that, I need to really step up my game. The way the qualifications work is thatyou try out for the development team, so you can improve your game, etc., and then you are able to try out for the National team the next year. Realistically,if I don't make it on the development team this spring, I probably won't be going to London at all. I have to decide whether or not to continue goalball next year if that happens, but I am not sure I can continue the traveling back and forth every weekend for six months without anything to show for it (aspot on the development team, for example). The problem is that I have seen marked improvement in my game and in my fitness and want to continue to build the momentum. My husband has been so supportive all the way through, but I don't want to quit because I don't get what I want right away, but the travel is crazy.
2) After meeting the Ontario girls a few weeks ago, it made me question if these are people I really want to spend an inordinate amout of time with. There's lots of drinking, unmarried sex, etc., etc., etc. I can't really explain it, but it kinda put a damper on that London dream. I wonder if I am going to be a light among them, a peculiar person... or if I am going to get dragged down to their level. As I am married, wanting to serve my husband, live a Godly life, and don't drink, I highly doubt I'll fit in or even if I want to (hardly condusive to team cohesiveness).
Decisions, decisions. If I were to ask anything, it's for your prayers.